I hate everyone around me

I hate alot of people but for this particular rant i will focus on my family

My family is messed up. My dad is a creep who probably has more than 3 mistresses, my mother is a sexist, tribalist and racist hypocrite, my sister ( one of them) is just the baby form of my mother but she seems to have her own level of irritating. My brother has recently discovered his long lost 'self-pride' and sometimes acts like an egotistical a-hole.

I would complain about my other sister, Oriade but i'm confused about her. For majority of my childhood she treated me like vermin but all of a sudden she's trying to act nice to me and it's weird. And uncomfortable. I know better than to trust her but im just conflicted.

Everyone around me is acting like a fucking twat and i just want to either kill them or myself

Sorry i haven't been posting. My mother seized my stuff

So a lot has been going on lately in my life. Well kind of


1.I have become more sexually frustrated and my scenarios are making it worse


2. I have been in this sort of 'friends with benefits' relationship with someone i know and it was going well - though we haven't done much- until my expectations of my perfect imaginary boyfriend started making my tolerance of him fade away. Now we are fighting and i think it'll be a while before we resolve it

3. I don't know whether or not it's a phase but everyone around me is so fucking irritating, like i can't even begin to explain how much i just want to snap at tell and make them realize how much of a twat they are

4.Doing my GCSE currently, a bit stressed since I'm not used to reading for so long and so much.

5. Made a resolution when i came back from Easter that i am going to stop being the weird anti-social one and  i will start interacting with people. Yeah, some asshole's will ignore me or be awkward around me but others are quite nice. I'm going to stop waiting for people to come talk to me and go out and explore the world

6. Not too sure about studying medicine. When i think about it's for so long and i have to read so much and i know i don't like reading so why would i choose a course i hate, waste 7 years of my life just to satisfy my parents. Doesn't make sense to me

There are more but im too lazy

Jal gayo