Friday, 6 June 2014

Dilemma

News update: i have a boyfriend


He has been my friend for about 2 years and he is weird, like totally fucking weird, and he is a pervert.

I don't mind cause I'm pervert too

Unlike my last relationship, we have lots in common like anime, shows, school subjects, manga, pervertedness etc and i truly enjoy talking to him but there are times when i look at him and think 'What the fuck is wrong with you?'

I anger him, he irritates me. It's the cycle that defines our relationship but we trust each other and i enjoy being in his company. I put it in God's hands and just hope that it will go end.

Another issue is the constant crave to just push him down and ride him. I mentioned I am pervert earlier right? well it's worse when I'm with him. We constantly tease each other and part of me wants to give in ( like half) but the other half ( the sensible one) is shouting 'YOU JUST STARTED DATING! CALM DOWN!!' so I'm in a dilemma  

From past experience I'm not going to jump into things and get sexual right away ( though i want to), i want to wait and get to know him more, his good and bad sides.

God help me

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