long story short:


My ovaries are fucked. I'm either on my period for months at a time or I don't see my period for months at a time. I am sick and tired of trying to fix it and seeing no results. I am overweight. I know that. I have dealt with this truth all my life and I have survived. But knowing the fact that i may not be able to have kids in future is because I'm overweight is becoming too hard to handle.

I am tired. I've reached a point where I don't care anymore.

If they spoil, then they spoil. If they decide to work again, great!!! I will rejoice. I , however, refuse to wallow in self pity over my unfortunate condition. I will cry, wipe my tears, pick myself and continue with my life. I refuse to go back to how i once was.