Currently enduring the pain that is A LEVELS.
i probably didnt tell you guys but i started a levels in September and I aimed High. I slacked off a lot in high school and i dont want a repeat of that here, so I said to myself from the get go 'Bruh, if you want enough money to buy million dollar mansions for your adopted kids' - cause i had given up hope on actually having kids of my own at this point- 'you better get the grades.
So far so good, things have been going well. I'm really stressed with everything. Juggling minimal sleep, studying for tests and homeworks, making notes... I'm really really stressed with everything. If you add the fact that I've now been sentenced to a lifetime of misery, I am just ..... peachy.
For the mostly confused people by a lifetime of misery i mean I have no other option in life than to become a doctor. Please keep in mind i fucking hate all sciences - especially physics- I'm more of a creative person ( even though i fail at that as well) i have to study medicine because i have no other option.
The things i enjoy doing - writing, drawing etc. I cant mold them into a career so I've surrendered myself to my fate - a lifetime of dreading waking up in the morning.
I am also currently fucking tired, and i just found out the guy I will compare my future husband to has a little......
How many times do I have to cry in a day till God realizes he should stop throwing shit my way.
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