Jealousy

I hate her.

There is a girl in my school who left in year 10 but came back later in Year 12 and since she came she has stolen my close friend - at the time- away from me and taken up the space i filled in her life.

To me she is ugly. She is short and unattractive, she is not funny and makes corny American jokes whenever she has the chance. Her skinniness is to her disadvantage because she looks sick. Her face is covered with pimples, her nose disgusting and fat and her skin burnt black. I know all these are just outward faults but i can't risk getting to know her in fear of harming her.

And as if the cow couldn't make me feel even more inferior, she excels in all the aspects that i try hard at: writing, drawing, painting, singing.... she does it all and i feel like shit

She pisses me off. Whenever i see her, hear her name or feel her presence i become livid and become unable to socialise with anybody. To make things worse the so called ' close friend' that she stole from me acts as if nothing happened, as if she didn't just dump me for an insect and still tries to talk to me with the arm of her new friend draped on her shoulder.

I hate them both

I know i sound petty and immature and i am sure the insect is a perfectly nice person and i am being a bitch but that doesn't change the fact that she hurt my pride. It doesn't change the fact that someone i don't even acknowledge was able to rip away all i cared for. It doesn't change the fact that i want to cry whenever i see her.